I was born and raised as a Christian, a protestant, just because my parents were Christians



My journey to Islam






In 1968 I was born and raised in Hannover, a big city in Germany as a Christian, a protestant, just because my parents were Christians. All my life I believed in God but I have been never too religious. When I prayed I prayed to God, not to Jesus. I never went for prayer into the church because in my opinion it wasn’t necessary, you can do the same at home to be close to God. With 22 years I got married a catholic and I’ve got three wonderful children. I teached them that God is always close to them and He protects us with His Angels. But while my marriage I became unhappy, my husband changed himself and he never talked about his problems with me. So slowly my marriage went broken. At this time I felt that I was losing my life, just everything. In 1998 we moved to Wernigerode, a small town in East Germany for business reasons and I still hoped to save my marriage. When my youngest child was old enough for the Kindergarten I re-started to work. One of my colleagues was a Muslim but not a believing one. I didn’t realize how he teached me some islamic manners. One year later I started to change my life. I became able to accept things how they are, no matter if they have been good or not. I realized that everything is made by God. While that time I became stronger. After ten years my marriage was completely broken and I was scared to leave my husband, how could I survive as a mother with three children?  But Allah’s ways are sometimes mysterious.




A couple of months later I’ve got the answer. When I started with my first internet experiences I got to know someone on internet and he didn't tell me that he is a Muslim. He was like the key to my new life Alhamdulilah. We shared our pictures, his was on his homepage. On that site I found two great links: one of the 99 names of Allah (at this
time I never heard about) and one of the Holy Qur'an. I read the first chapter and was so impressed that I wanted to read more. So I was looking for the german translation. My  muslim brother in future, Abdul Rahman, didn't know about. I told him later that I was reading the Qur'an and he was so happy to hear it. After a few weeks we got to know us he left the
USA to move to Macedonia (at this time the war over there started) but he promised me to keep in touch with me. Alhamdulilah he did and every time I was so happy to hear about him in these bad times. It was the first time I was afraid about someone I've never met before and made a lot of dua for him and his family. I tried to improve my knowledge in islam and in spite of our distance he gave me great advices to encourage me. My new faith, better my   believe in Allah gave me the courage to change a lot of things in my life. I left my husband and started a new life. It was a hard time for me but I felt how Allah was always close to me.


I will never forget the day when I had the strong wish to convert. My children found outside a babycat and we tried to save him. I prayed to Allah to let that little creature alive. He gave him one week. I woke up at night and found our babycat dead. His body was still warm and I have been so sad. I asked Allah why He did it. After a sleepless night I realized in the morning that it has been God willing. He gives and He takes life. That was the moment; I knew I had to convert as soon as possible. Allah gave me a sign. Unfortunally there wasn’t and still isn’t a muslim community here, too less practicing Muslims. To convert to islam I needed to go to Braunschweig, a town in the western part. I met some brothers and sisters and the Imam on the station, my train was late and I hadn’t much time to stay and to go to the masjid before I had to return to my town. So I said the Shadahah on the station and one sister told me before I would feel like newborn and she was right. Mashallah.  It’s difficulty to get some more knowledge in islam without an ummah and to bring up my children in the islamic way but I don’t give up.


When I told my family and my friends about my conversion, they have been shocked and except my Mom and my little brothers they didn’t want to talk with me. I was so sad about but I couldn’t my faith for my family or anyone else. My brother Abdul Rahman told me it would take time until my relatives would understand and he was right. Still my Dad can’t understand why I so convicted about islam and why I decided to wear a scarf. He said that I wasn’t born as a muslim, it were not my culture. Insha’Allah one day he will understand too.


So when I converted to islam in 2001 nobody told me how I had to dress or that I had to wear hijab from now. I changed my habits and my outfit slowly and almost one year later I've got more and more the wish to wear hijab but unfortunally I couldn't. When  I have been invited by some sisters for Eid-ul-fitr in Braunschweig. I took the chance and left for the first time my home with a hijab. Masha'Allah it was a wonderful feeling. I considered if I should continue but I didn't want any problems for my children as the only german muslimah in town. I asked them and they agreed and a couple of days later, after a lot of dua'a, I realized my wish with Allah’s help. It has been 2 years ago and I don't regrette my decision. I can't imagine anymore leaving my home without a scarf. People are still looking on me because they are still not  use to foreigners here (sometimes I'm being took for a Turk ) but  when I have the chance to talk with some about islam, especially  about muslim women, I do and I must say that I have only good  experiences. I’m proud to be a Muslim, Masha’Allah.




After all I must say that I don’t regrette one moment that I became a Muslim. Islam is sometimes

hard but I have never  been happier before and I thank Allah that He sent me someone like an angel,

Brother Abdul Rahman, because I  found the right path for my life. May Allah reward all my

brothers and sisters who helped me (and still do) through my way to islam. Alhamdulilah,



Aminah Amatullah







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