My journey to Islam
In 1968 I was born and raised in
A couple of months later I’ve got the answer. When I started
with my first internet experiences I got to know someone on internet and he
didn't tell me that he is a Muslim. He was like the key to my new life Alhamdulilah. We shared our pictures, his was on his
homepage. On that site I found two great links: one of the 99 names of Allah
time I never heard about) and one of the Holy Qur'an. I read the first chapter and was so impressed that I wanted to read more. So I was looking for the german translation. My muslim brother in future, Abdul Rahman, didn't know about. I told him later that I was reading the Qur'an and he was so happy to hear it. After a few weeks we got to know us he left the
I will never forget the day when I had the strong wish to convert. My children found outside a babycat and we tried to save him. I prayed to Allah to let that little creature alive. He gave him one week. I woke up at night and found our babycat dead. His body was still warm and I have been so sad. I asked Allah why He did it. After a sleepless night I realized in the morning that it has been God willing. He gives and He takes life. That was the moment; I knew I had to convert as soon as possible. Allah gave me a sign. Unfortunally there wasn’t and still isn’t a muslim community here, too less practicing Muslims. To convert to islam I needed to go to Braunschweig, a town in the western part. I met some brothers and sisters and the Imam on the station, my train was late and I hadn’t much time to stay and to go to the masjid before I had to return to my town. So I said the Shadahah on the station and one sister told me before I would feel like newborn and she was right. Mashallah. It’s difficulty to get some more knowledge in islam without an ummah and to bring up my children in the islamic way but I don’t give up.
When I told my family and my friends about my conversion, they have been shocked and except my Mom and my little brothers they didn’t want to talk with me. I was so sad about but I couldn’t my faith for my family or anyone else. My brother Abdul Rahman told me it would take time until my relatives would understand and he was right. Still my Dad can’t understand why I so convicted about islam and why I decided to wear a scarf. He said that I wasn’t born as a muslim, it were not my culture. Insha’Allah one day he will understand too.
So when I converted to islam in 2001 nobody told me how I had to dress or that I had to wear hijab from now. I changed my habits and my outfit slowly and almost one year later I've got more and more the wish to wear hijab but unfortunally I couldn't. When I have been invited by some sisters for Eid-ul-fitr in Braunschweig. I took the chance and left for the first time my home with a hijab. Masha'Allah it was a wonderful feeling. I considered if I should continue but I didn't want any problems for my children as the only german muslimah in town. I asked them and they agreed and a couple of days later, after a lot of dua'a, I realized my wish with Allah’s help. It has been 2 years ago and I don't regrette my decision. I can't imagine anymore leaving my home without a scarf. People are still looking on me because they are still not use to foreigners here (sometimes I'm being took for a Turk ) but when I have the chance to talk with some about islam, especially about muslim women, I do and I must say that I have only good experiences. I’m proud to be a Muslim, Masha’Allah.
After all I must say that I don’t regrette one moment that I became a Muslim. Islam is sometimes
hard but I have never been happier before and I thank Allah that He sent me someone like an angel,
Brother Abdul Rahman, because I found the right path for my life. May Allah reward all my
brothers and sisters who helped me (and still do) through my way to islam. Alhamdulilah,